Thanksgiving's tomorrow. I will have a 4-day weekend. Yay! I seem to have gotten a bit distracted this past month. Evidence being the gap in dream journal entries between 2020-11-01 and 2020-11-24. It seems like several days I wanted to write down about dreams but then never got around to it.

I've been generally stressed out this year, but I think it got worse since the weather got cold. I was 'stuck' up on the farm for almost all of October. For about a week of that I was here alone while Sara was down in Madison and the weather got cold and I got sick.

I eventually went back to Madison at the beginning of the month, met Ally, went for a hike on the Ice Age Trail with some friends, and went for an oddly nice walk to Elver Park on the last nice-weather night while listening to the Inusual [Deadmau5] Study Mix (more evidence that my mood is linked to the weather). I got all hyped up about music stuff, downloaded the Reason 11 demo and played with it until a crappy track came out (it's not that crappy—Sara said she liked it, just not quite up to my standards). Playing with Reason 11 chewed up the entire weekend, or maybe two of them. The timeline is all mixed up in my head. I may have downloaded Reason 11 before that walk.

I got super frustrated when my psychiatrist told me I don't have ADHD and that she wouldn't prescribe me anything to help deal with it (I think she's wrong, but moreover felt like she totally ignored a lot of evidence and didn't take me seriously at all), went for a less-plesant-than-the-one-on-the-9th-walk (it was colder, I was frustrated, and the music wasn't as good), and rambled at Sara on the phone. Then I visited Ally again! Talked about bad psychiatrists and V8 energy drinks and stuff. I didn't take notes, so probably forgetting important points.

Then I headed back up to the farm! Meant to be up for under a week but then stuck around. Maybe I will head down sometime over this 4-day weekend. It would be good to be back in Madison in case I need to check out hardware for work stuff.

I wonder if living in 2 places is a big part of the stress. I feel like when I'm down in Madison for a long time I feel pretty good. I'll be finally taking care of projects and working on the house! And maybe it's harder to do those things when I'm (A) living with another person (especially one who also has ADD and struggles to get tasks done) and (B) 300 miles away from most of my tools.