I was adding up my expenses and deposits from and to my bank account today when it struck me just how quickly this month had gone by. There've been 3 weekends since I met Chase, and 4 since I started collecting signatures for Doug. Another week or so before all that was when I last talked to Marlene and got sad that she didn't want to move beyond being friends went on a long bike ride. I think I attended the Food Not Bombs vegan dinner thing sometime around then, too. And also somewhere back there I went to the Echo bar with Josh and John and Aaron, went on a trip to La Crosse with Jamie, and Adam made us ice cream drinks. I've been working on things related to NetworkRTS on and off since sometime in March, I suppose. But it's the most recent 3 weekends and that have been really special. Back before the relationship with Chase seemed to collapse (I don't think I've written about the actual collapse yet, but it happened when I went out to drink with her and her cousin on April 20th) I wrote a summary of how things had been going so far, mostly centered on signature-collecting and Chase-chasing.

The way the past 2 weeks zoomed by and remembering how wonderful I felt knowing that Chase liked me and that I would see her again made me kind of sad. And I'm not sure it's entirely because I wanted that to continue, but also because it felt so special that I wanted to share it. So I wrote up a letter for Chase just telling her how magical it felt when I was seeing her and explaining a couple of things from 4-20, since I'd sent her a text the day afterwards saying that I wanted to clear some things up. I don't know that I'll actually give it to her, but I feel better now that I have it.

I was going to hang out with Loren and Joh tonight, but Loren's busy. I think Joh and I are going to do something, but I don't know what, yet. Maybe just run.

Today I'm finally finishing the leftovers from Ventiane Palace that I got with Chase two Fridays ago.

*sigh* 💔 😢

(I haven't checked what that looks like, but it's supposed to be a sad heart and a sad face.)